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 Maybe not.

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 This is tape number four. I'm interviewing Clary Rosenblom.

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 You told me that the factory was bombed and you were living in a cellar where water was dripping.

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 Yes, exactly, where water was dripping.

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 And we were together with my best friend, her name is Margit Werder.

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 And I was so sad when the food became worse and you became more and more hungry.

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 And you know, when you are hungry, I don't think there is a worse thing.

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 Thirsty, water, and then you are hungry, that you faint because you are hungry.

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 And you can't do anything.

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 So I prayed, you know, it's also a strange thing, but it was true.

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 And I prayed at night, "Oh, dear God", the second time God heard me.

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 "Can't you make me sick, so that I can gather my bread?"

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 "So that I can be fed once?"

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 "Whether you believe it or not, I became sick and vomited."

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 "And I gave up my sops until I had a relative from another city."

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 "I gave up my rations for her, who was my best friend, and for another one."

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 "When I became healthy, I had four days of that, and I had under my pillow."

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 "Pillow and pillow."

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 "There was no pillow, I don't know what it was."

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 "And when I became healthy, the next day I had no bread left."

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 "They had stolen all my bread."

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 "They stole from each other."

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 "Mothers and children could harm each other."

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 "And that hurt me very much."

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 "Very, very much."

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 "And then I was happy again that I didn't have my mother and my sister."

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 "That I didn't have to see my mother suffer."

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 "And all the time I thought like that."

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 "And then people started to gather, you know, when my besties died."

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 "Then I have seen, there in Essen, it was raining."

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 "They had pneumonia."

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 "The more powerful and stronger they were when we came to Auschwitz."

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 "I was thin."

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 "And the others who were strong and looked so strong, they died first."

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 "They couldn't make it."

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 "I don't know how."

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 "Or why."

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 "Maybe they didn't eat so well at home as children, right?"

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 "Even though they were strong, they ate a lot of bread or..."

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 "Or not so well, right?"

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 "But they couldn't make it and many died."

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 "That's when it started."

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 "Then suddenly, you know, it could have been..."

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 "The end of February, the beginning of March."

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 "Then they again said that we were going away."

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 "And then we also went by train."

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 "But where? We didn't know."

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 "Then they started bombing several stations."

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 "But we never went to the bunker."

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 "The Germans have gone to the bunker, but not us."

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 "So it took many, many days."

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 "And then we arrived in Bergen-Belsen."

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 "What kind of wagons?"

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 "Red wagons."

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 "Then it was only seats, not wagons."

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 "It was ordinary, old benches."

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 "Did you get any food during the trip?"

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 "Yes, but nothing special."

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 "When we left, several stations stopped and they bombed."

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 "But maybe not all of our wagons arrived, but we did."

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 "When I arrived in Bergen-Belsen, they said that there was a family hospital nearby."

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 "And I thought, 'Oh my God, a family hospital!'"

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 "So I called my mother again."

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 "And you know, all the time I had the big chimney in Auschwitz in front of me."

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 "And I knew in my mind where the chimney was."

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 "And I followed where I was shared by my mother, which way I went and which way they went."

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 "And when they went, there was no barracks."

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 "I knew that, and I knew it too, but I didn't want to know that it was a crematorium."

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 "I said to myself that God can't be so cruel."

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 "That it happened."

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 "I couldn't understand."

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 "And everywhere I have looked for my mother in Bergen-Belsen."

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 "And in that family hospital I have found my uncle, my mother's brother."

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 "And it was closed."

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 "So they said, 'You have an uncle named so-and-so.'"

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 "They asked the city, 'Where are you from? Is there anyone from the same city?'"

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 "And then he came to the closure."

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 "It was his wife and his five-year-old child that I told about in Auschwitz."

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 "And I didn't tell him."

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 "That they went with their mother."

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 "But he knew it."

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 "It came to light."

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 "And he got a package from the Red Cross."

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 "Cigarettes and a few different things."

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 "They had better things there with the Red Cross than we had."

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 "So he gave me some raw potatoes."

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 "And he ate shells instead."

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 "And a few cigarettes that I couldn't give to the Germans."

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 "Blocker testers."

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 "And I got soup."

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 "One more soup."

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 "Do you understand when I had cigarettes?"

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 "And that uncle saved me."

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 "I guess so."

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 "And he also survived the war."

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 "So they moved from there."

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 "He left the Red Cross."

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 "They emptied out."

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 "And the last days, you see, all the Germans had already fled."

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 "When they knew that we had been liberated."

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 "They whispered that we were going to be liberated soon."

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 "You know, they whispered all the time."

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 "But during the war, those who could walk, they saw so many dead."

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 "Mass graves."

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 "So everyone who could walk had to die in the barracks."

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 "And my best friend, in the last days, we didn't have a bed in Bergen-Belsen."

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 "So we lay on the stone floor."

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 "And she died next to me."

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 "They didn't want to be afraid."

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 "And the same with that aunt, this Blanca."

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 "The daughter survived."

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 "And they also found the father."

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 "The whole family had found each other and she died."

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 "Because most of them died after liberation."

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 "But because of this mass grave work."

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 "I don't understand how you could do that, you see."

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 "To pull the dead by the hands."

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 "They had bones and skin."

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 "And we pulled several hundred meters."

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 "Before we got there, there were the mass graves."

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 "And we threw them there."

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 "Who did that?"

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 "I did."

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 "And then suddenly we were liberated, I remember that."

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 "When we were liberated, they threw away the cans."

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 "Gold colored cans."

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 "And there was chocolate and other things inside."

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 "And then everyone who started eating that."

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 "Even more dead."

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 "And then we got tiffus immediately."

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 "And then I couldn't walk anymore."

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 "But I still tried to find something."

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 "As long as I could walk, I don't remember."

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 "I only remember when they packed us in trucks."

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 "And drove us to the hospital."

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 "And I don't remember at all."

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 "I just remember that they cut my hair one more time."

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 "Because it was light."

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 "Dirty."

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 "Were you still alive when you were liberated?"

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 "Yes, but I couldn't walk."

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 "I couldn't enjoy it."

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 "Because I thought we weren't normal."

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 "And many who have passed today are still looking for rotten things."

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 "You know, when the Germans disappeared from the camp."

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 "All the SS men were blown away one morning."

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 "And then you could walk as you wanted, no one guarded us."

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 "No meat and no one has told you not to go."

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 "We weren't guarded anymore."

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 "And those who dared to go and look for food, they did."

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 "But that was the biggest mistake."

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 "Because then everyone died."

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 "And I survived."

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 "And ended up in the hospital with typhus."

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 "And I couldn't eat normal food, nothing."

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 "But I didn't understand why."

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 "So there they started talking about us going to Sweden, to paradise."

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 "And there we were waiting."

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 "They described ten long dresses."

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 "What we were going to get."

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 "And you know, going to Sweden, you knew when you went to Siberia."

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 "You were prepared, it's very cold here."

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 "But it's so fantastic here."

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 "Who told you that?"

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 "One after the other, I don't know when they picked us up."

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 "They heard so little, so they told us a lot."

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 "We just knew that we wanted to go to Sweden."

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 "And I just remember that I didn't have any siblings."

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 "There were a few of us who survived from our town."

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 "And we agreed that we would go to Sweden."

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 "The ones who were in the hospital."

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 "But I lost the rest."

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 "Then we met."

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 "So we went from Lybäk to the fishing boats."

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 "And I remember that I was very sick."

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 "I couldn't walk, I threw up all the time."

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 "I couldn't eat."

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 "Then we got to the fishing boats, and I remember that we got fishballs."

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 "I remember that so well."

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 "Fishballs with tomato sauce or something like that."

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 "And Mariachäst."

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 "And I will never forget that Mariachäst."

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 "How wonderful it was."

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 "Mariachäst, you know."

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 "And then we got fishballs, and we got to Malmö or Lybäk."

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 "Malmö, Lund."

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 "And when we got off the boat, they gave us Swedish bread and sausage."

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 "And they disinfected us."

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 "They undressed us, and we got a change of clothes."

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 "They undressed us, I don't remember what it was, but we were clean at least."

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 "And the smorgasbords were open, and we got bread, and sweet bread, and sweet limes."

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 "And nobody wanted to eat sweet bread."

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 "And there was sausage and everything else on it."

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 "So it was fantastic."

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 "Then we were placed in Lund, in a school."

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 "In quarantine for three weeks."

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 "And then it was wonderful, you know."

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 "And then we got the toilet paper."

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 "But it was fantastic food, you could see everything every day, it was delicious."

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 "You know, after this one I undressed."

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 "And I didn't get stronger, you know."

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 "And when we ate lunch or dinner,"

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 "I went behind the school and undressed after every meal."

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 "Instead of telling them that I wasn't feeling well and asking for a doctor,"

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 "I didn't do that."

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 "Because I didn't get used to eating."

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 "And since then I've eaten bread and sausage."

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 "And then in '56 I got a concentration camp, among other things."

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 "But when we heard that we were also there, we were in quarantine for three weeks."

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 "And then we went to Låkabron."

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 "Another camp in the summer, a few months."

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 "From there I changed."

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 "There we got five kronor, I think, for ten days."

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 "We got it."

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 "So I remember so well when we started to save money together,"

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 "and bought yarn and knitted, that we should have something on us."

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 "At that time it wasn't like that, you know, we saved this five kronor,"

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 "so we could buy, you know, something, that we should have clothes on us."

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 "Because we only got one change of clothes, and that was all."

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 "And then we were there, and then those who recovered somehow,"

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 "so we went to work."

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 "So I went to Möllike."

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 "And thirty girls we lost."

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 "Again we were together, a few from our town."

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 "And thirty young girls, you know."

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 "Both of them got a house in Möllike."

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 "And there we lived with thirty girls."

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 "And the older ones who wanted to be there, they got a little salary,"

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 "from our salary."

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 "And they cooked food."

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 "So we had lived as a collective in that house."

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 "And in 1945 we came here, in the autumn of 1945."

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 "And there we lived, and we took the bus to Möndal."

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 "Beveri."

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 "And we worked there in shifts."

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 "Once a night, once a day."

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 "And we were very happy, you know, we were so relieved,"

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 "because we had our normal clothes on,"

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 "and we had eaten, and then I started to feel better too."

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 "And seven years passed, and we thought we were normal."

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 "And we were grateful."

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 "So suddenly, you know, I came to think,"

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 "that I had received a letter from my uncle,"

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 "who had given me cigarettes."

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 "He had gone home to Lund."

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 "And he wrote to me,"

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 "and I asked him, 'Have you heard anything from my dad?'"

248
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 "Because I thought that I would be the first to get my dad back,"

249
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 "so I thought it was me."

250
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 "Because he stayed in Lund and didn't come to Auschwitz."

251
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 "And he never answered me, you know, he never did."

252
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 "And then one day I wrote to him,"

253
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 "I want to know, I've been through so much,"

254
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 "I want to know what happened to dad."

255
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 "You don't answer me, and you probably know,"

256
00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:46,000
 "that I've never received a letter from dad,"

257
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 "that if he were to live, he would have looked for me."

258
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 "And then I wrote, 'No,' and then it was finished,"

259
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 "and then I prayed to God again."

260
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 "Please God, can't I dream what happened to dad?"

261
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 "And it was so, you know, that I dreamed,"

262
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 "it's also in front of me,"

263
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 "I dreamed that they had gone,"

264
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 "and dad climbed up a mountain,"

265
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 "and got shot and rolled down."

266
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 "That's the dream I have, I remember it to this day."

267
00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:30,000
 "After that I got a letter from my uncle,"

268
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 "and wrote that dad lived in 1945,"

269
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 "in March, in Danzig, Germany,"

270
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 "and there were four friends in Danzig on the morning of March 45."

271
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 "They were there, and there was a road,"

272
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 "that went to the right and left,"

273
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 "and they discussed which way they should choose,"

274
00:20:03,000 --> 00:20:06,000
 "and what my dad had done with his hand,"

275
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 "but it doesn't matter to me which way I choose,"

276
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 "I don't have a family anyway."

277
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 "And the other two came home,"

278
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 "and dad and the others were shot,"

279
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 "and I dreamed,"

280
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 "because I prayed so hard that I would do it,"

281
00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:32,000
 "because I wanted to go home to Lungen,"

282
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 "and not stay in Sweden."

283
00:20:35,000 --> 00:20:38,000
 "Then my uncle wrote that I should come home,"

284
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 "because he had no children."

285
00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:46,000
 "And then I met my husband,"

286
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 "in the beginning of January or February 1996."

287
00:20:52,000 --> 00:20:55,000
 "At that time they started sending packages,"

288
00:20:55,000 --> 00:20:57,000
 "so I earned a few kronor,"

289
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 "so I sent a package to my uncle,"

290
00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:05,000
 "a package of one kilo,"

291
00:21:05,000 --> 00:21:08,000
 "and that's how I met them."

292
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 "My best friends in Argentina,"

293
00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:14,000
 "Klari, we met two brothers,"

294
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 "because my husband had a brother,"

295
00:21:17,000 --> 00:21:19,000
 "and he was a little older,"

296
00:21:19,000 --> 00:21:24,000
 "but they were two very good, fantastic brothers."

297
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 "And one of them is good for you,"

298
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 "said one of my friends,"

299
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 "let me be with Polish guys,"

300
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 "I don't want Polish guys," I said.

301
00:21:35,000 --> 00:21:38,000
 "So I met him at the post office,"

302
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 "in this society in Munich,"

303
00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:45,000
 "and he turned me upside down,"

304
00:21:45,000 --> 00:21:48,000
 "he was ten years older than me,"

305
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:54,000
 "and he always laughed, he was very happy."

306
00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:57,000
 "So he turned me upside down,"

307
00:21:57,000 --> 00:22:00,000
 "and said, 'You're good for me,'"

308
00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:03,000
 "and I laughed, you know, compared to a child."

309
00:22:03,000 --> 00:22:06,000
 "I still had soles on my feet,"

310
00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:09,000
 "when I came to Sweden."

311
00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:12,000
 "I still had soles on my feet,"

312
00:22:12,000 --> 00:22:15,000
 "not regular socks."

313
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 "So we lived in this villa,"

314
00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:21,000
 "and he started to watch me,"

315
00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:24,000
 "and as I didn't know,"

316
00:22:24,000 --> 00:22:27,000
 "you know, I was alone."

317
00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:31,000
 "So we got along with each other,"

318
00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:34,000
 "and we went out together,"

319
00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:37,000
 "but we didn't promise to do anything,"

320
00:22:37,000 --> 00:22:40,000
 "but I wanted to go home to London."

321
00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:43,000
 "So my uncle heard from someone else,"

322
00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:46,000
 "who had gone home to London,"

323
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 "that I was with a Polish guy."

324
00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:52,000
 "So he said, 'You're going home with him,'"

325
00:22:52,000 --> 00:22:55,000
 "and he was afraid that I would get hurt,"

326
00:22:55,000 --> 00:22:58,000
 "that I was so young,"

327
00:22:58,000 --> 00:23:01,000
 "that I wouldn't go in the company for so long."

328
00:23:01,000 --> 00:23:04,000
 "So I stayed."

329
00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:07,000
 "I had packed up and said goodbye to my job,"

330
00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:10,000
 "in Sweden,"

331
00:23:10,000 --> 00:23:13,000
 "and I wanted to leave Sweden in 1946."

332
00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:16,000
 "I had tickets,"

333
00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:19,000
 "and everything,"

334
00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:22,000
 "and sent away packages,"

335
00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:25,000
 "and at that time you had packed packages,"

336
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:28,000
 "so you put one rubber boot in one package,"

337
00:23:28,000 --> 00:23:31,000
 "and in the other package you put the other rubber boot,"

338
00:23:31,000 --> 00:23:34,000
 "so that they wouldn't get stolen,"

339
00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:37,000
 "because one didn't want anything."

340
00:23:37,000 --> 00:23:40,000
 "So you know, that was the end of the war."

341
00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:43,000
 "So I wasn't afraid of Sweden,"

342
00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:46,000
 "but I was afraid that when I got to London,"

343
00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:49,000
 "all the packages were sent away,"

344
00:23:49,000 --> 00:23:52,000
 "and I was going to leave."

345
00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:55,000
 "And then I fell in love with him,"

346
00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:58,000
 "and he didn't know we owned nothing,"

347
00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:01,000
 "and had nothing,"

348
00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:04,000
 "because what were we going to build our lives with?"

349
00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:07,000
 "He worked in the factory,"

350
00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:10,000
 "and I worked in the factory in shifts,"

351
00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:13,000
 "and we had nothing."

352
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,000
 "But then I stopped,"

353
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:19,000
 "and then my happiness began,"

354
00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:22,000
 "and I'm grateful,"

355
00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:25,000
 "that it has become like this,"

356
00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:28,000
 "and that's how I got married."

357
00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:31,000
 How old were you when you got married?

358
00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:34,000
 We got engaged in December '46,

359
00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:37,000
 and in the beginning of '47 we got married.

360
00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:43,000
 In the beginning of '47 we got married.

361
00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:47,000
 And then we got a small apartment,

362
00:24:47,000 --> 00:24:52,000
 one room, which was about the size of the yard.

363
00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:55,000
 We didn't get it.

364
00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:58,000
 We paid 500 kronor,

365
00:24:58,000 --> 00:25:01,000
 because we got it from some other refugee.

366
00:25:01,000 --> 00:25:04,000
 And you know, you couldn't break in the window.

367
00:25:04,000 --> 00:25:07,000
 When we opened the window,

368
00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:10,000
 there was maybe 12 square meters of space in the whole apartment.

369
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:13,000
 And with a roof over our heads.

370
00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:16,000
 And one time we got married in the night,

371
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:19,000
 in the winter, when it was cold.

372
00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:22,000
 That's how it started, and I wanted us to get married,

373
00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:25,000
 so we started saving.

374
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:30,000
 And we saved every krona.

375
00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:34,000
 The money I had earned,

376
00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:37,000
 maybe 20 kronor a week,

377
00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:40,000
 I kept it for food.

378
00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:43,000
 And when I had food, I bought things like this,

379
00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:46,000
 I could buy a sheet,

380
00:25:46,000 --> 00:25:49,000
 or a handkerchief for payment,

381
00:25:49,000 --> 00:25:52,000
 or something that was worth it.

382
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:55,000
 And I saved, because he didn't want children,

383
00:25:55,000 --> 00:25:58,000
 because we didn't own anything.

384
00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:01,000
 And I just yearned for it.

385
00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:04,000
 I always stood by the stroller,

386
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:07,000
 wondering when I would have a child.

387
00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:10,000
 So I've been married for a few years,

388
00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:13,000
 since I was born in 1950.

389
00:26:13,000 --> 00:26:19,000
 I gave birth to my first wonderful daughter.

390
00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:22,000
 And I wanted a daughter.

391
00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:25,000
 And I've told you,

392
00:26:25,000 --> 00:26:28,000
 that I have a teacher in the camp,

393
00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:31,000
 and her name is Anita.

394
00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:34,000
 And I've said that I thought she was so kind,

395
00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:37,000
 that when I had a daughter,

396
00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:40,000
 her name would be Anita.

397
00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:43,000
 And her name is Anita.

398
00:26:43,000 --> 00:26:46,000
 She was born in 1950.

399
00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:49,000
 And I am very...

400
00:26:49,000 --> 00:26:52,000
 We have saved and worked very hard.

401
00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:58,000
 To pay for things.

402
00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:01,000
 I remember that you said that my hobby was music.

403
00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:04,000
 The first piece of furniture that we bought for payment,

404
00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:07,000
 was a radio and a gramophone.

405
00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:10,000
 That was my first piece of furniture.

406
00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:13,000
 Where did you live then?

407
00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,000
 We lived in the little apartment,

408
00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:19,000
 and I worked in the factory all the time.

409
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:22,000
 We didn't know how to work.

410
00:27:22,000 --> 00:27:25,000
 I said that I would go to school,

411
00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:28,000
 because I was so young before I left the farm.

412
00:27:28,000 --> 00:27:31,000
 But I said no, I don't want to go to school,

413
00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:34,000
 because I'm going home to my dad.

414
00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:37,000
 I'm going home to my dad.

415
00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:40,000
 But I stayed here.

416
00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:43,000
 And I'm very grateful for Sweden.

417
00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:46,000
 I've worked very hard,

418
00:27:46,000 --> 00:27:49,000
 and I've had very difficult times.

419
00:27:49,000 --> 00:27:52,000
 I spent a lot of time in the hospital,

420
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:55,000
 because I had a migraine.

421
00:27:55,000 --> 00:27:58,000
 I always had a very big migraine,

422
00:27:58,000 --> 00:28:01,000
 and no doctor could cure it.

423
00:28:01,000 --> 00:28:04,000
 I thought that I got so many blows to the head.

424
00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:07,000
 I spent a lot of time in the hospital.

425
00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:10,000
 I worked and spent time in the hospital.

426
00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:13,000
 They were researching all the time.

427
00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:16,000
 They didn't know where I got the migraine.

428
00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:19,000
 They didn't know where I got the migraine.

429
00:28:19,000 --> 00:28:22,000
 They didn't know where I got the migraine.

430
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:49,000
 For more information, visit www.FEMA.gov

431
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